In Other Words
this week’s prompt is:
“It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.“
Before I accepted the me that I am I was not happy. Not a happy little girl, not a happy teenager, not a happy young woman. I wasn’t miserable just not happy. I was uncomfortable with other people because I was uncomfortable being me.
There were different ways I dealt with my discomfort. For awhile I was a chameleon. I just blended in wherever I was being like everyone around me so I wouldn’t stand out or be noticed.
Then I was an actress which is different than being a chameleon. I was a character in the play of my life just saying scripted words to fit the occasion or event. That was harder than being a chameleon…acting is tough. Keeping track of the parts you are playing can be exhausting. During my acting days I was a bit of a rebel, a quiet rebel to be sure, but a rebel all the same. Playing the characters I wanted without thought to consequences.
With whatever persona I used I was an outsider. I am still an outsider and I am okay with this. I think most introverts are solitary people. I have learned to be content with being different. Listening to my own music within. No longer playing parts or trying to fit in. Growing up has its pains and becoming who you really are is not for wimps. It takes courage.
On Wednesday, the 25th, there will be this quote to write about:
I do know my own mind. The trouble is my mind changes and then
I have to get acquainted with it all over again.
Lucy Maud Montgomery