The past has no power over the present moment.
I woke up about 4am this morning and could not go back to sleep. Why? Because I started thinking about something that happened many years ago. I could not stop thinking about it, and it upset me to the point I wanted to scream!
I was given some advice by someone I trusted. I did what I was told to do and it was a mistake. A big mistake! The part that upsets me is that I didn’t agree with the advice and yet I followed it. My inner self told me it wasn’t the best option, that what I wanted to do was right. Still, this person was a professional with lots of experience and I was just learning.
I know now to follow my intuition, but back then I was unsure of myself and was looking for someone else to solve my problem. The problem last night was that I was angry, not just with my advisor but more so with myself. I don’t often lose sleep over this anymore and when I do it is upsetting.
Silly, isn’t it? It is over and done and life has gone on. I have survived and flourished in spite of the bad advice and my inexperience. It has taken a lot of determination and hard work and I have come to the understanding that I am to learn from my mistakes, to put the past where it belongs, and to live in the present. Usually, I don’t let the past bother me to the point of sleepless nights, but sometimes I forget my own good advice.
I rarely think about this anymore but when I do…
let’s just say I am less than my best self.