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Monday musings…

The past has no power over the present moment.
Eckhart Tolle

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I woke up about 4am this morning and could not go back to sleep. Why? Because I started thinking about something that happened many years ago. I could not stop thinking about it, and it upset me to the point I wanted to scream!

I was given some advice by someone I trusted. I did what I was told to do and it was a mistake. A big mistake! The part that upsets me is that I didn’t agree with the advice and yet I followed it. My inner self told me it wasn’t the best option, that what I wanted to do was right. Still, this person was a professional with lots of experience and I was just learning.

I know now to follow my intuition, but back then I was unsure of myself and was looking for someone else to solve my problem. The problem last night was that I was angry, not just with my advisor but more so with myself. I don’t often lose sleep over this anymore and when I do it is upsetting.

Silly, isn’t it? It is over and done and life has gone on. I have survived and flourished in spite of the bad advice and my inexperience. It has taken a lot of determination and hard work and I have come to the understanding that I am to learn from my mistakes, to put the past where it belongs, and to live in the present. Usually, I don’t let the past bother me to the point of sleepless nights, but sometimes I forget my own good advice.

I rarely think about this anymore but when I do…
let’s just say I am less than my best self.


30 thoughts on “Monday musings…

    1. Yes, we all have regrets, and it is those I try to forget. But the lessons I want to remember, so I don’t repeat the mistakes and have new regrets.

  1. This happens to us all — both that we take advice we are not comfortable with and that we regret it at 3 a.m. for decades afterward. There were times in my youth I felt paralyzed with indecision and relied on someone else’s expertise. I have learned that is not a good idea. Best to research or whatever and take your own road. At least when you beat yourself up, it’s not because you didn’t follow your own way.

    1. You are right, it is best to follow our own path. When I do that, even if there are problems, they are less troublesome. Sad to say, I am glad I am not the Lone Ranger in this.

  2. Yes, we’re wiser in hindsight. I try not to linger in the past, but sometimes you can’t help but pay it a visit. I’ve learned to stop and ask myself, what’s truly in my heart, because I think that’s where God is your best adviser.

      1. Please allow me to apologize for all my random remarks to your commenters. I realized that might have been annoying Patricia. Will refrain from now on.. Susannah

    1. It probably is a common trait among those who have decisions to make. All we have is the present time to live so it is as you say best to concentrate on today.

  3. We all do this from time to time and why is a mystery. We can’t change a thing, but we dwell on it nonetheless. You are not alone Patricia.

    Have a fabulous day and week. ♥

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