life · past · present · whatever!

Monday musings…

Contentment is accepting the world
as an imperfect place.
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I wasn’t always content, far from it. There was more to my discontent than the usual stuff of being a teenager, and it got worse with time. As a young woman and into middle age, I was unhappy most of the time. It just became the norm for me.

Somewhere around 50 years, I got tired of the life I was living. I decided to make some changes, but I didn’t know quite what they would be. So, for a time, I went to a psychologist. Best thing I ever did!

I learned a lot about myself and how I looked at life and living. The biggest thing I learned was how often I said or thought, “I should.” Why did I think “I should” do something or be something, feel or want to be different in some way? I was always trying to be who or what I thought others expected or wanted me to be. The whole experience of being in counseling was eye-opening. It was difficult, and it hurt. There were lots of tears. Oh, and there was laughter, too. I’m a pretty funny person. I thought that was a bad thing. There wasn’t a lot of laughter in our house when I was growing up.

Anyway, when I came to my 50th birthday, I decided I would be who I am. I would just be me, whoever and whatever that was. I likened it to being a butterfly. I was leaving the cocoon and would be the real me. Another best thing I ever did!

Do you know what I found out when I left the cocoon? I am a curious, daydreaming, intelligent introvert with a good sense of humor. Some people like me, some don’t, and that’s okay.

The most important lesson I learned is that I don’t have to be what others want me to be or who they think I ought to be. I am who I am, the good, the bad, and the sometimes ugly. Deal with it or go and bother somebody else with your idealistic nonsense.

Oh, by the way on my 50th birthday, I got a tattoo.
It’s a butterfly just out of the cocoon and beginning to fly.

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attitude · Tuesday Chatter · whatever!

Contentment…

Today is Tuesday and that means Chatter

When I was wondering what to chat about I got to thinking about being content.
The reason this is on my mind is because I was not content last night
and I woke up this morning in the same ugly mood.
This is not my usual state.
I was in this mood because I had an appointment this morning
that I did not want to go to.
Because of my snotty state I cancelled the appointment and stayed home.
Not smart.
Now I have to reschedule the appointment.
This has not improved my mood.
I was unhappy with what was and now unhappy with what will be.

Socrates said it best
“He who is not contented with what he has,
would not be contented with what he would like to have.”
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Sometimes I just get so mad at myself!

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musings · observations · Tuesday · Two Shoes Tuesday

Tuesday, three faces of joy…

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These pictures have something in common besides being pictures of cats.

To me they express  three aspects of joy:  elation, contentment, and poignancy.

When things are going our way and everything is good in our world.
We are giddy with joy.
We smile and laugh and feel happy.

 There are times when troubles and difficulties are few and we feel good.
We rest in quiet joy.
Confident and relaxed.

Then there are times when sadness and sorrow come to us.
And still there is joy.
Deep within we know all is well.

Some people do not know joy.
My heart breaks for them.

Two Shoes Tuesday, prompts this week awaken or joy.

musings · Saturday · Uncategorized

Saturday, resolve…

Maksimir Path
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Today is the first day of the New Year, 2011.

As I reflect on last year my first thoughts are that it was just another year.  No mountain tops and no deep pits.  No real forward motion but no slipping back, just holding steady.  The only thing that stands out is the death of my cat.  Other than that there is nothing about 2010 that had any lasting impression on me.

But with further thought I realize I am more content and at peace with the world and myself than ever before.  That alone makes last year one worth keeping in a treasure chest marked “Remember”.

Being content and at peace with the world and self does not come with trumpets and parades and loud hurrahs.  It slips in quietly, unnoticed and unheralded, and takes up residence without a fuss.

How awesome is that?!

I don’t make New Year’s Resolutions but if I did I would resolve to more readily recognize the grace of  contentment and peace that blesses my life.

Who, on earth, knows what 2011 will bring?  What I do know is that I will keep my “Remember”  treasure chest close at hand.  And I will keep my heart open to all the grace and blessings of contentment and peace that is yet to be revealed .

Happy New Year.