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Monday musings…

Contentment is accepting the world
as an imperfect place.
Anonymous

I wasn’t always content, far from it. There was more to my discontent than the usual stuff of being a teenager, and it got worse with time. As a young woman and into middle age, I was unhappy most of the time. It just became the norm for me.

Somewhere around 50 years, I got tired of the life I was living. I decided to make some changes, but I didn’t know quite what they would be. So, for a time, I went to a psychologist. Best thing I ever did!

I learned a lot about myself and how I looked at life and living. The biggest thing I learned was how often I said or thought, “I should.” Why did I think “I should” do something or be something, feel or want to be different in some way? I was always trying to be who or what I thought others expected or wanted me to be. The whole experience of being in counseling was eye-opening. It was difficult, and it hurt. There were lots of tears. Oh, and there was laughter, too. I’m a pretty funny person. I thought that was a bad thing. There wasn’t a lot of laughter in our house when I was growing up.

Anyway, when I came to my 50th birthday, I decided I would be who I am. I would just be me, whoever and whatever that was. I likened it to being a butterfly. I was leaving the cocoon and would be the real me. Another best thing I ever did!

Do you know what I found out when I left the cocoon? I am a curious, daydreaming, intelligent introvert with a good sense of humor. Some people like me, some don’t, and that’s okay.

The most important lesson I learned is that I don’t have to be what others want me to be or who they think I ought to be. I am who I am, the good, the bad, and the sometimes ugly. Deal with it or go and bother somebody else with your idealistic nonsense.

Oh, by the way on my 50th birthday, I got a tattoo.
It’s a butterfly just out of the cocoon and beginning to fly.

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Monday Musings · whatever!

Monday Musings…

“Clutter is the physical manifestation of
unmade decisions fueled by procrastination.”
Christina Scalise

Image by makkendiy0 from Pixabay

One of my goals for 2019 was to clean out the clutter that had accumulated. There was a lot of clutter because I am a pretty good procrastinator when there is something I don’t want to do. There are things I don’t want to do that get done because if they aren’t done…well things smell and look awful and people will talk about me behind my back…and really because I can’t stand it when some things aren’t done.

Anyway back to my goal of decuttering. It’s done! Took three pick up truck loads to Goodwill to be done, one in the spring, one in the summer, one last week and a lot of stuff went in the trash. This may make me sound like a hoarder but I am not. My brother was a hoarder so I know from first hand experience what hoarding looks like.

To be truthful, there are a few things that I probably should have given away but I didn’t. They are things I don’t use and don’t really need but for now they are still here. Maybe someday they will go out the door but for now they still have sentimental value to me. That and I am afraid my mother will haunt my dreams if I give away some of her treasures.

All in all it feels good to open closets and armoires and drawers and see only things I actually use…sort of…I got tired of trying on clothes that I really like even though they don’t fit. Hey, I might lose the pounds I have gained in retirement, you know.

The other goal was to paint my apartment. I painted the kitchen then hired someone to paint the rest of the place. Except the doors. There are 18 doors and since no ladder is needed I decided I could save a few dollars and do them myself. I have three more to paint. Procrastination is in full bloom! I do have until midnight December 31 to have them done 😼

I have made the decision not to have goals for 2020.
It feels good to know there will be no procrastination stress.



Quotes and Questions · whatever!

Quotes & Questions 2018 #2…

watchingqDon’t let the noise of others’ opinions
drown out your own inner voice.”
Steve Jobs

In the past, I have often let the opinions of others make decisions for me.  These days I listen to their opinions and consider them then I do what I think is best.  Took work to get to this point but it was well worth the effort.

Are the opinions of others what makes your decision or do you use their opinions as help to make the decision?

 

 

Celebrate the Small Things · whatever!

Decision reveal…

I wrote in an earlier Celebrate the Small Things post
about finally making a decision but I didn’t tell what it was
because I hadn’t yet told the people that really needed to know.
Well, now they know so I can let everyone know.

As of December 30th I am…
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! Retired !

At least for now.
I am not sure I will like not working.
I guess I will know in a few weeks if I like being retired.
If I decide I need more structure or connections I will look for a part-time job.
Until then I’m just chillin’.

That’s my
Celebrate the Small Things
this week.

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Celebrate the Small Things · Uncategorized · whatever!

Things done…

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Today I am Celebrating the Small Things

After months of thinking about it, seeking advice, going back and forth about what to do, and being a bit crazed I have made my decision. Can’t tell you what it is just yet
but after New Years I will.

I am almost done with Christmas shopping. I don’t do anything major in the way of gifts, just little thought gifts. Usually, I make something but this year I did not. I might make cookies or something, though.

The bit of holiday decorating I do is done.

 I am ready for the holiday and it isn’t even the week of the big day.
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