I am at a place in life where I pretty much own my time. I still work but for the most part I work the days and hours I want. If I want to be busy I am if I want a day of daydreaming and naps I have that.
I am a person who likes, and needs, lots of alone time and these day I have that luxury. I can stay home when I want and can go out when I want.
There are things about aging that are more bummer than fun but there is more good to it than bad. I think, the bad about aging is that when you realize it ain’t all that bad there is more past to remember than future to live.
But then comes wisdom that makes the time left more precious and wonder-filled and the sorrows sweeter and more bearable.
I have a friend who says, “Youth is wasted on the young.”
I used to agree with her but now I am not so sure. Without the freshness and vibrancy of youth there would be no strength or resiliency in old age. There would be no experience to teach us how to be old and fully alive.
Today, I am thankful for the grace of another day.
As I reflect on last year my first thoughts are that it was just another year. No mountain tops and no deep pits. No real forward motion but no slipping back, just holding steady. The only thing that stands out is the death of my cat. Other than that there is nothing about 2010 that had any lasting impression on me.
But with further thought I realize I am more content and at peace with the world and myself than ever before. That alone makes last year one worth keeping in a treasure chest marked “Remember”.
Being content and at peace with the world and self does not come with trumpets and parades and loud hurrahs. It slips in quietly, unnoticed and unheralded, and takes up residence without a fuss.
How awesome is that?!
I don’t make New Year’s Resolutions but if I did I would resolve to more readily recognize the grace of contentment and peace that blesses my life.
Who, on earth, knows what 2011 will bring? What I do know is that I will keep my “Remember” treasure chest close at hand. And I will keep my heart open to all the grace and blessings of contentment and peace that is yet to be revealed .