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Monday musings…

The past has no power over the present moment.
Eckhart Tolle

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I woke up about 4am this morning and could not go back to sleep. Why? Because I started thinking about something that happened many years ago. I could not stop thinking about it, and it upset me to the point I wanted to scream!

I was given some advice by someone I trusted. I did what I was told to do and it was a mistake. A big mistake! The part that upsets me is that I didn’t agree with the advice and yet I followed it. My inner self told me it wasn’t the best option, that what I wanted to do was right. Still, this person was a professional with lots of experience and I was just learning.

I know now to follow my intuition, but back then I was unsure of myself and was looking for someone else to solve my problem. The problem last night was that I was angry, not just with my advisor but more so with myself. I don’t often lose sleep over this anymore and when I do it is upsetting.

Silly, isn’t it? It is over and done and life has gone on. I have survived and flourished in spite of the bad advice and my inexperience. It has taken a lot of determination and hard work and I have come to the understanding that I am to learn from my mistakes, to put the past where it belongs, and to live in the present. Usually, I don’t let the past bother me to the point of sleepless nights, but sometimes I forget my own good advice.

I rarely think about this anymore but when I do…
let’s just say I am less than my best self.


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Tuesday, little victories…

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There was a time when I was very hard on myself if I thought I failed something or someone.  I would really beat myself up!  Somehow, I had gotten the idea that if I made a mistake or failed that was the end, and once at that end, victory was impossible.  Where do these misbegotten ideas come from anyway?

Wherever they come from they need to be stomped on! Fast!  Everyone makes mistakes and sometimes fails to meet expectations.  But how we respond to our mistakes and failures determines whether we will be victorious in the end.  In any mistake or failure there are points of success.  What we learn through the experience, how we grow in it, how we allow it to mold us, is up to us.  Victory is learning and growing and becoming a better person.

The truth is we only fail when we let our mistakes stop us.  When we pick ourselves up and continue on we have a victory;  we have beaten back failure, we win.  Sometimes it is a little win.  But all those little wins, little victories, are rungs on the ladder of success.

I think we should recognize and celebrate all the little victories we have.  I think we should start today!