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Monday, memories mask…

It ain’t necessarily so…


This is what I remember.

The above is how I answered a Plinky prompt yesterday, “You’re writing your autobiography.  What’s your first sentence?”

While thinking about my life and what I would–and do–write about it, I realized that what I remember is how I perceive the happenings and events–or non happenings and events–not necessarily the facts.

Memories are not always the whole truth or even truth at all.  The memories we have are our personal truth, perhaps, but maybe not someone else’s truth.

Today, I think  if I wrote my autobiography there would be people I know who would not recognize me at all.

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Monday, musings…

5.7.06 Leaping Lilacs
Image by M J M via Flickr

Today is Monday, October 4, 2010

Motivation.  I find it easy to encourage and motivate others but very difficult to do this for myself.  Take yesterday.  I got up early,  fed my cat, read the paper, did the crossword puzzle, and went back to bed.  Got up,had lunch, read a bit, and went back to bed again.  Got up and had supper and was angry with myself for wasting a whole day.  Grrrrr.

I had a list of things I wanted to do.  Most were things I enjoy doing.  And when I do them I feel good.  It is wonderful to feel that I have accomplished something, something  that adds to the goodness of my life.

I think I, like a lot, if not most people, need to be nicer to myself.  Someone once said to me that I beat myself up with the “I should” of my life.  Why do I/we do that?  Like there are not enough nay sayers in our lives, those who will give us all the reasons we cannot or will not make the most of our lives.

I grew up in a house that had a lot of negativity in it.  The words I remember hearing  most often were “you can’t and they won’t let you”.  Sad.  Sadder yet is the fact that well into my adult years I believed this to be true and never tested to see if it was true.  Once I started testing this strange rule of my life I found it a lie–the truth is I can and they will let me. (Who are “they” anyway?  A topic for another Monday.)

Okay, I think I have just done some soul-searching and feel encouraged and motivated.  I will accomplish and achieve, I can and I will,  the truth has (again) set me free.  Hallelujah!

As for sleeping yesterday away–it was not wasted time–if I did not need the sleep to rejuvenate and charge the batteries I would have spent the day tossing and turning instead of dreaming. There, I have encouraged and motivated me!

Today is a new and great day and I am the really great me!